Today I consciously let go of my stubbornness toward life. I opened myself to love. When I moved towards love I invited an energy state into my being.
All that I needed to alter my state of awareness was a calm, relaxing mental attitude.
Once I found myself in that state, my thinking and feeling was affected positively. Resting in that energy of love created a shift in my perception.
Much of my life is lived within my mind. When I can open myself to love, I experience life differently.
I see and feel through the lenses of love. My life may not have fundamentally changed, but my experience of it did.
I gave life a fair opportunity to show its beauty to me. Today I stopped, became still and tuned into what life had to say to me.
I was patient with life, I loved life and it loved me back.
Its been a while since I’ve shared my journal writing here. The first reason is, I just haven’t been inspired to write. Second reason, is why would you want to read my whinny, selfish and self-centered posts? Tonight I’ve decided why not? Maybe this will help me to heal, and in turn heal the hurt relationships around me. So here goes nothing….
I have been caught up in a whirlwind of emotions. My life continues to change so dramatically, that some days I don’t even know who I am anymore. Where I was once so comfortable in my own skin and focused only on solutions and not problems. I lived my life through a God filter I saw His purpose in all things. I could easily turn bad moments into lessons. And now I’ve been living with resentments, fear, anger, jealousy, low self-esteem and I’m stuck! Some days I seem to handle it okay, other days not so much. I’m raw and emotional.
When you once knew that you were in a place that you could handle almost anything, that the confidence that you knew did not come from self, but from the love of higher power. When you stood at a crossroads and choose the road less traveled, the road that brought peace out of chaos, unforgiveness into acceptance, and hate of oneself into love. How do you go back to not knowing?
I’ll tell you how I’m doing it! By living in denial of my emotions. By acting stronger than I am at the moment. By not talking about it honesty with those I trust. By isolating. By letting resentments come between the relationships that meant the most to me and my life.
At times God seems remote and incomprehensible. I experience frustration in establishing conscious contact with Him. Even though I know that my relationship with Him will wax and wane, that knowledge doesn’t keep me from growing impatient with God and myself. The longer it goes on, the more spiritless and alone I feel.
I know that this pain and anxiety holds a purpose, but I stopped searching for the answers. Maybe I’m afraid of what I will find?
With Peace and Hope,
Good Morning and welcome to the first day of the rest of your life ~ We get busy living, or get busy dying, the choice is yours. Growth is the only evidence of life ♥
A Wonderful guide to the fulfillment of your dreams! You can watch the great video of Deepak Chopra discussing the principles of his guide below. You can also download the PDF of the guide by going to the RIGHT BORDER and going to the FREE STUFF area and downloading the PDF file. From the CHOPRA CENTER:
Many of us grew up with the belief that achieving success requires relentless hard work, grim determination and intense ambition. As a result, we may have struggled for years and even reached some of our goals but wound up feeling exhausted, our lives out of balance.
As Deepak Chopra observes in his transformational book The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success,such desperate striving isn’t necessary or even desirable. In the natural world, creation comes forth with ease. A seed doesn’t struggle to become a tree―it simply unfolds in grace.
The seven spiritual laws are powerful principles you can use to fulfill your deepest desires with grace and ease. These laws of aren’t difficult or mysterious but are easy to understand and apply. Each day of the week is dedicated to one of the seven spiritual laws. We invite you to develop a daily practice in which you meditate or take a few moments to quiet your mind, and then read the spiritual law of the day and practice applying it throughout the day.
The power of prayer can move the hand of God. God can change an individual heart, free a person from bondage and torment, break the power of an addiction or heal a person’s emotions.
God’s power can impart a sense of value and purpose, bring peace and joy, grant wisdom, and work miracles. The awesome and tremendous power of God is released in our lives through simple, believing prayer!
Gone are the days when I doubted my ability to grow, to change. One of the first lessons I learned in recovery is that change is possible! Even though I felt defeated, I am here now!
Once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure if in fact, if the storm is really over.
But one thing that is certain. When you come out of the storm you won’t be the same person who walked into it.
I am willing to grow today, regardless of whether it is in pain or joy! I grow in darkness and in light!
Our God is an AWESOME God!